Post #2
09/22/2005
This is a COMPLETELY new thought, so I figured it would be best just to write a whole new post…
The Lord has been revealing lots to me lately. I have received some wise words from a few really godly people, and I know that I ought to be taking a lot of it to heart. One thing in particular that I know God has been working on is my character. The sad truth is I have horrible character. I am not loving. I am not kind. I am not gentle or gracious or forgiving. I am not honorable or faithful. Instead I am divisive and stubborn (heck…I am a Taurus right?!). I am jealous and easily angered. I am prideful and unwilling to be wrong. O wretched man that I am…
I get mixed up inside when God gives me these kinds of revelations. I hate it because it is such a honest look at who I am. And that is NOTHING to be proud of. But I love it because I know that the Lord is working in those areas. He reveals those areas because He wants better for me. He needs me to give up my filthy rags and take hold of the “riches of fare”.
Jesus is not any of the things that I am (speaking of my corrupt character). In fact, He is the perfection of all the things in which I fall short. I want so bad to come to a fuller knowledge and experience of that in my life. Truth be told, I think I can put on a decent mask a lot of the times, when reality paints a very different portrait. I just want to be honest with the Lord. I want Him to have complete freedom in ALL areas of my life. That is my prayer. That is my confession. That is my white flag.
Holla at yur boy.
