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REVIVE ME AGAIN

01/07/2007

I have been doing a lot of introspection lately. One thing I have realized is that I don’t have the “fire” I once had. Revelation talks about a church being lukewarm — and to be honest that is how I feel a good chunk of the time.

I miss the excitement that came along with being a Christian. I remember when I first believed the gospel. I was SO thrilled to tell everyone I knew about the Lord. He was the song of my heart all day long. But now, I feel like He has been placed on the proverbial back-burner of my heart. Don’t get me wrong…I LOVE the Lord. But sometimes I don’t feel that special connection we once had.

I tried to explain it to Kesha this way: Remember that 1 gift you got that you had been hoping to get for months? For me that was my Nintendo GameCube this Christmas. Right now I am so into it. I play a couple hours a day (sometimes). I invite all my friends over to play. I try to get Kesha to play with me (and she does some of the time). But I imagine a couple years from now it will be sitting in a box in my garage.

That isn’t how I want my relationship to be with the Lord. I want Him to be the first thought in my mind when I wake up, and the last when I go to bed. I want intimacy again. I want the closeness that I once knew.

Just some thoughts.

Vin Thomas

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