02/15/2009
I struggle somtimes to be a graceful person. I feel that it is easy for me to be very judgmental, mean-spririted, and frustrated. That is not the person I want to be. Sometimes even in my sarcastic joking I feel conviction. Especially when it comes to my wife. I know that is not the way she deserves to be treated. Even if it is all in jest, it does not build her up or make her feel good when I harass her jokingly. I want to learn to be a more graceful person. I envy some people who seem to have such a kind way about them. I envy that trait. I am not sure if that is inherent to them, or if it was something that they had to learn. All I know is that I need Christ to change my heart attitude sometimes. I often find myself several steps across the line. I don’t want to be that person.
God help.
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10/31/2008
I have been reading Hosea lately, and I cam just LOVING it! I have read it before, but for some reason this time it is just sinking in so deep. Hosea was told by God to marry a prostitute named Homer — but I just call her “Prosty the Snowman” because it has more or a ring to it. Anyway, even after Hosea marries her, she is completely unfaithful and continues to screw around with any and every guy she can get her hands on. And that is how God chose to illustrate His relationship with His people. WOW! What a slap in the face. When I read that I realized how I go every day living my life totally self-centered and whoring around with the world. I am not faithful to God.
So here I sit in the midst of feeling like a little tramp that is not worthy of any love or forgiveness and then I read this:
“But then I will win her back once again.
I will lead her into the desert
and speak tenderly to her there.
I will return her vineyards to her
and transform the Valley of Trouble into a Gateway of Hope.
She will give herself to me there,
as she did long ago when she was young…”
I can’t even take that in enough! God is saying (in my own words) “Even though you have been living like a whore, I will seduce you once again to love me with all of your heart”. That was such a huge verse for me. I spent a good chunk of the night just thinking about it and begging God to seduce me back to loving Him “as I did long ago when I was young”. That is what I want. I want to be in LOVE with God again!
Conviction City in Grace Country.
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05/13/2008
I am so humbled by the grace of God. Many times in my life I have become so numb to the realities of the cross. I can easily get caught up in enjoying the blessings of God that I lose sight of the incredible cost that was paid for them. I pray that I will be able to see my shame, but not to be destroyed by it. I pray also that I will be able to see the great price that was paid for my freedom.
I know this is a short post, but tonight I am feeling very introspective. I have so many thoughts that it would be hard to stop writing if I really got going…
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