Living Openly
03/11/2009
I read an article from Rethink Monthly today called “Dirty Girls” that really shocked me. In the article Anne Jackson, a young author, talks about her struggle with pornography. It was shocking in many ways — not just becuase it was a woman talking about porn, but it shocked me to see how open she was about her sin.
I frequented erotic chat rooms, watched movies and browsed through hundreds and hundreds of pictures. Soon my porn binges started affecting my performance at work and my relationships.
Of course I never mentioned my struggle to anyone. Looking at porn was typical, even expected, for guys but a girl? A girl who likes porn? I often questioned my sexual orientation.
Why did I like looking at naked women? Was I gay? Bisexual? A pervert? I hated what I was doing so much. I knew it was wrong, but I couldn’t stop.
Kesha read the article earlier today too, and we talked a little bit about it this evening. Both of us were encouraged by the article to embrace the openness that Anne Jackson shared in her story. This kind of genuine life is what honors God after all. But it sure is easier to pretend we have it all together isn’t it?
What do you think of this kind of openness?
